17 days away fr my 1st paper!! Oh no...left so little time for me to study so many things...worse of all no motivation to study harz...haiz...dunno why like that lehz...reallie hate wad i'm studying now. all semiconductors one!!! so erxin...so sickening one...

was actually reading thru the ms2004 notes...hahaha...the side effect was fall asleeping..but nvm lahz...the side effect of ms302 n ms304 is worse lorz....think they can reallie drive me crazy or already driven me to that extend. coz i will get headache wif mix feeling of "high-ness" siao liao right??hahaha...

let's haf a guessing game now....

guess what is the bird in semiconductor device?hahaha...there's more to it all proudly presented by Park during lect that drove all of us crazy and filled our brain with more and much more question mark on wadever "bird" he is teaching...and funniest of all, he start writing chinese character all over the ppt slides...like machiam teaching chinese like that...ahhaa...so any clue what is the bird???hahaha...

ans: its bulk!!! not bird...how can there be a bird in semiconductor devices?????

another thing that keep me fr progressing in my revision shld be my upcoming FYP ba....recieved an email not long ago telling us that we can choose our own sup and propose our own FYP topic....was thinking of whether to get a nice sup but do thing not so much of my interest (but at least not semiconductor) or shld i choose to approach a maybe not that nice sup to do something related to my interest one????haiz....which one shld i opt for??? :(

-lazy, 0 motivation & confused ahnua-

Sunday morning yet i'm all alone in hall now trying to study. However, till now like cant bring myself to do anything other than washing up.

really miss those days where all of us gather together to study. the study group was rather big lehz...let me see got who...daddy, laopa, changyuan korkor, shiyun, kailin, kaka, debbie, see ning, sometime mama, used to haf zhixiong b4 he graduated.

our of all those pple, each of them haf a different role that will actually force me to study. Daddy will always be the one to ask me along to study and teaching me any problem i encounter. and yes..i mean ANY!!

Zhixiong korkor will always force me to study and stop me from talking but he do bring some entertainment along when he's bored lahz..hahaa...as for changyuan, he will be my music provider. (1 discman, 3 pple share!!hahha). As for shiyun, she will be the one to wake me up to study and since we in the same course, things that i dunno can ask her also.

eerrmm...for kailin, kaka, seening and mama, its like quite funnie lahz...when i no mood to study, they are all pia-ing quietly. So in order not to disturn them, i got to study also lorz...hahaha.. Debbie used to be our milo supplier, dinner cook, anything got to do wif food lahz...hahah....lastly is bohan ba...he harz...ok lahz..entertain mi while i'm bored, also got teach me lahz...hahaa

It was so funz wif all of them ard to study together. Our bond juz strengthen coz of this study group(imagine we stick together everyday from 830am to 2am until exam finish lorz). and sometimes even reward ourselves by having supper after studying..or a gd breakfast buy in by changyuan..

those were the goody old days...all these will never happen in this sem or even again already...sad right?worse of all....now i'm fighting this disgusting and sickening battle all alone by myself coz Shiyun went home le.......sobsob

Sometimes no choice but to believe shiyun's theory of wad u dont like will end up always appearing or happening to you.

yeah yeah...i dont like lizard....and ya...i always see them all around even in very dark places, i can see them before anyone else can. Is it coz i purposely look out for them or wad huh? Such sensitive eyes i haf!

next, i hate semiconductors stuff or even like physics and mechanics. haiz...but i'm studying everything about them now. They are driving me crazy now!!! cant understand anything at all...haiz...why do i haf to study them??!?!??! why are they my core modules?!?!?! ***pui***

another thing...i juz hate the smell of smoke...but i'm like smelling it everyday now due to that stupid haze...its so erxin lorz....on top of that, always kanna those 2nd hand smoke fr walking pipes...

sometimes reallie buay tahan...go shopping...always kanna knock into one lorz....space so big dunno why pple will always end up banging into me lorz...some can even bang until i almost fly off harz...why cant they juz siam abit more huh? i siam so much until no road liao still the same lorz...haiz....izzit i eat glass grow up one huh? pple cant see me harz? why like that one?

yes....i dont like waiting....yet this wk i kanna so many times again...meet my pri sch frenz..let me wait at cityhall for 1hr...waited 5hrs for frenz to go home also lorz...and let me wait at a hot place that make mi have headache now....arrrrggghhhh....

lastly, i cant stand hot weather. why is it so hot recently?????sob..........

such an unpleasant post....but no choice...not in a good mood now....juz feeling pissed off for no apparent reason... :(

yeah yeah..so happy!!!SO HAPPY!!!Finally 1 presentation down and yes, it was very successful n well done!!! juz feel so relac now and dont feel like anything at all...ahhaa..too high liao....hehehe..higher then drinking that whisky sour i tried last sat at hairy's bar.....hehee..

actually this whole wk was very stress up wif all the presentation and project stuff....so even i had some fun during the wkend, i was still like finding something amiss...not reallie and totally enjoying myself...and little little things can juz pissed mi off lahz...hahah...

thinking back, i shldnt be so worried abt it at all...haha..everything went on so smoothly...shld had enjoy myself at the dinner and chalet!! nvm.....all over le...i shall reward myself todae by slacking now till i get back to hall to continue on my 302 report....hehehe...

SO HAPPY!!! :)

I'm so happy todae!!! know why???hahha...coz.....

no. 1, i finally manage to find the CD i wan.....so heng siahz...i got 1 of the last 2 copies...hehehe....guess wad CD i bought???yeah...secret garden the 4 in 1 CD pack for the price of $29.90 only....so happy!!!heheh...

no. 2, I had my chem quiz todae....and this is the only quiz in ntu all these years that i can solve almost all the qns....hehehe....

no.3, I had a nice dinner at JP. went to eat sushi...hehehe..maybe a kind of reward to myself for doing so well todae...haha..so proud...hehee....

no.4, settled all the videos taking and presentation slides for my ms135 project within 2hrs of filming...and of coz our dear super goody group leader help me to compile all the video clips into one....hehehe....now recieving it....hope wont kanna dc.....

anything else to be happy abt???let me see.......errrmmm....oh...juz recieved a call fr my pri sch frenz....yeah...we are meeting up tml evening for dinner....hehhe...so long didnt see them...the last time i saw them was like during chinese new year lorz...woww....ard 2months ago lehz...

are u as happy as mi todae??? :) :þ

ermm...notice anything new in my blog????haahaha...juz a tag lahz...but abit lazy to add colour at all...so that's the most original tag u ever see....eheh..nothing much to write todae....maybe coz was too bz trying to study and understand my chem....tml quiz harz...but still...errmm....rather confuse lehz....die die die....

actually quite stress up recently...until abit the weird lorz....past few nights was like hell to mi....1st time in my life that i cant sleep....not as in no time to sleep...but juz cant sleep....best of all....was thinking of all the presentation slides...projects stuff in my coconut head harz....haiz...think until finally fall asleep at like 3am...but end up waking up once at 5am, 6am, 7am and finally 8am for class....aiyo...terrible siahz...and it lasted for 2 days....lucky only lasted for 2 days...if not sure die of exhaustion one....hahaha....

side track fr wad i did.....now going into how i feel ba.....

wad's the feeling of being left out by ur so called gd frenz? how will u react to that particular event and in the future?

1)will u juz ignore it and live on without them in ur life ever again?
2)will u feel sad over it but still get on wif life trying not to think abt it n still treat them as frenz?
3)will u feel sad..and think over it again n again?

think i'm type no. 2 ba....wad abt u?

todae did alot of legs, arms, and mouth training...stand for like almost 9hrs....on top of that...walking all ard wif a stack of paper and freebies to give out....and of coz start explaining things loud enuff for pple to hear mi coz of the stupid loud loud speaker playing dunno wad rubbish that cover up my voice....end up like screaming across to the pple like a mad woman...ahhaa....

nevertheless, its an interesting day....u can see how thick skin pple are nowadays....going ard juz collecting nice and beauitful freebies....and they can juz take n go without asking...or come to ur booth n ask...can i haf one?take already then leave....hahaha....some u can see them eyeing for the freebies that's why they come asking u qn....best of all....ask abt something totally unrelated to ur booth...like where's the toilet?? followed by can i haf that freebies? the highest level of all is staff....they collect freebies like siao....each one take like 4 or 5 of the same kind of things...haha...and...of coz i got lotz of things as well...thanks to all the aunties there...go ard collecting for mi...and teach mi to be more thick skinned...but they failed terribly...hahaha....

was actually having dinner wif one of my frenz....was toking abt some sensitive issue over dinner....ya...ya...religion...we were wondering how can one coz of religion juz put their studies aside...ignoring abt their responsible of being a student...is that wad their religion teaches them???they can give reasons like..oh i'm busy...very busy...wait till sun and i can start on all the stuff when actually the dateline of submission is mon! end up the rest of the group will haf to do much more work to cover up wadever were missing....isnt it reallie unfair? why can they juz go enjoy their activities while we slog our nights away trying to complete their work?best of all....when u hint that u r not very pls abt it and actually sound irritated to the pt of even saying them straight in the face but they still dont haf any reaction.....izzit they are so block head until they cant get anything??or juz trying to act blur n run away fr responsiblity?

again...that 2 words...."that's life"....filled with all kinds of pple ard...making and forcing each of us to grow up and handle things the way they are...learning the skill of patience......yaya...and i reach another level of that...hahah....*mission accomplished*

qn of the day....this qn apply to 2 situations i'm in now....

early in the morning...CITS call mi in for training...but only for 10mins!!! now break until...errmmm.......130pm!!! shld i go back n sleep???so tired manz....or shld i do my tutorials???haiz....stay or not to stay??

another situation is.....of coz my eca at ntuco...staying there now is more of becoz of frenz...able to see them and have funz wif them....yayya....did told a few that i will be MIA mode le...but sometimes juz feel something's amiss on mon when i didnt climb up that terrible high hill....haha...i'm a weirdo lahz...hahaha...things up there can be quite funz...but can be super boring during practice time harz....shld i stay for frenz...or shld i leave for work?!?!?haiz....reallie will miss them alot manz....so she bu de.....why do i haf a choice??? errmm.....i'm juz weird...no choice complain...got choice also complain...haizz...

lesson of the night:

last night had a long talk wif shiyun...realised that actually some happenings in childhood really affect the personality of a grown up quite alot lahz...we being thru almost the same things...maybe that's why we haf quite a lot of thinking in common....some juz led a different childhood...no wonder they are the way they are....another thing is that if there's any misunderstanding....reallie shld clear it once u know it...if not...everything will be in a mess especially if that someone will start spreading abt wadever happened lahz...life is so....sulky with all these stuff....but maybe that how life can be spice up also....right?

why think so much on a thursday morning?!??!? may shld reallie get more sleep to prevent me fr thinking so much...ahaha...dont waste my brain cell on all these stuff now....

conclusion: am going back to hall to sleep!!!yawnz....zZzzzzZZZz

errmm....quite a few days since my last posting....went back home and dont reallie haf the chance to touch the comp lorz....coz my sis keep hogging to it reason being she juz finish her common test...must let her relac...watch her play sims...abit buay tahan...hahaha....cant seems to get her char to private sch without my help...hahaa...

sun went watch hitch....a very funnie show...a nice movie to watch when u r totally too restless to study, too sianz n bored of being juz staying awake...after that went for nusco concert at UCC....reallie dont like that place harz...sound effect is...errmm....i shall not say anything...hhaha...but think u all shld get wad i mean right?hehehe... their pieces are all BIG piece lehz....and their orchestra LOOK BIG also....hahaha....but dunno izzit coz of the concert hall...they dont sound as loud as wad shld be...or izzit those song must play softer one???errmm..dunno lehz...hahaha...i not pro enuff...

errmm....todae super restless lehz....cant seems to get anything done at all...juz feel like slacking...but cannot lehz...exam coming....presentation coming...report submission coming...so many things on mind that i haf to clear...but so little time n concentration i haf to complete them....haiz....by right shld be doing report now...but see...see....end up blogging here again...hahhaa....later got lect at 230pm....boring....shld i go home todae???dont reallie feel like going yoga tml lehz....yawnz....yawnz....yawnz...zzzzz...........

yayayya.....bought a new comp but end up like an old problematic comp.....it kanna dunno wad stupid virus and some of the stuff are juz not runnning properly again....haiz....stupid computer...

i'm electronic stuff suay or wad huh????my hp forever is not in gd working condition no matter how many i changed.....now my computer also like that lorz....haiz....that MP3 player also almost cant make it...lucky they let mi change 1 for 1 siahz....sobsobsob....i'm so suay wif IT related stuff!!!!!!! aaarrrrrghhhhh.......

suay suay suay.....juz so suay...suay until sandal also spoilt now...sobsob....why i so suay?!?!?!haiz....

can anyone tell mi why my computer always siao huh???WHY LIKE THAT???haiz...

1st posting......also dunno wad to write....my blog juz look so empty now....nothing nice for mi to upload....shall see wad i can do wif this....errm.....will this be my 1st n last posting???hahaa...i also not sure...perviously use to write in zorpia.....but was too bz....so stopped for quite awhile till now...starting wif a brand new blog....enjoy blogging!