For the past 1 wk, I live my life as per normal. Attending lesson whenever there is. Meet up with frenz for meals, funz n eca.

Funz n laughter did filled my days. However, no matter what, bits of sorrow juz appear from no where from time to time. So many things happened. So many things to think and consider about. So many things to be worry about. So many thing to be sad for.

Laughing and time were said to be the best medicine for all cure. Why do I feel worse after so long and after much enjoyment? Why do I juz feel like crying in the end? Why???

我到底是快乐还是伤心？？？

Who is the one to make u smile fr the bottom of ur heart?
Who is the one to make you sad?
Who is the one to make you cry?
Who is the one to lend you a shoulder in time of need?
Who is the one to dry your tears for you?
Who is the one to give you the feeling of peace and relaxation?
Who is the one whom you want to share your sorrow with?
Who is the one whom you want to share your happines with?
Who is the one that you miss dearly?
Who is the one who miss you dearly?
Who is the one you want a hug from?
Who is the one you want a kiss from?
Who is the one whom you want to hate yet cant?
Who is the one whom you cant forget at all?
Who is the one to make you all confused?
Who is the one to give you confident?
Who is the one????
Who???

1 wk of holiday doesnt mean anything to me since the start of my yr1 sem2 life. Since then, i nvr haf any chance to enjoy the 1 wk break at all. Everytime will be bz wif studies or eca.

This time even worse!!! 3 assignments, 1 project n 1 quiz to finish up during this break. Fun and laughter, peace and joy seems to be gone as time passby especially now that I'm in final year.

Fun, laughter and joy gone coz not much time to reallie enjoy myself at all...

Peace gone coz no matter wad I'm doing, I'll be worrying abt my stupid PLLA all the while. Not enuff time to rest of coz wont feel peaceful as well....

Now i'm too stress, tired n restless to do all my other stuff. Juz cant concentrate!!! reallie feel like getting out of this place but cant.................haiz.............

It seems to be a rather nice day todae. Finally settled my FYP stuff. Confirm the base to use, the amt required, the thickness, the incubation temp, the timing. So meaning mon onwards I will be in lab all the time to do all the sample preparation. FINALLY!!! All the way!! GO GO GO!! Hope nothing will goes wrong!!

Juz recieved a gd news a min ago. My frenz managed to get the ger he likes to be his gf le. It took them 10years to get together. All the best to them!! Jiayou my dear frenz!!!!! Reallie happy for both of them. Hope they will treasure each other then, I wont feel guilty at all. So sweet!! making mi envy worz...hahaha... JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!

This news might be a little outdated. But as long as havent happen, think it still has a value to be reported lahz. My kor got his GIP! Most prob will be leaving for china after exams or so. Reallie happie for him that he can get this rare chance of going for overseas IA and study. Its like only 3 fr his course got it and he's one of them!! Lucky dude!

Actually will feel sad abt it also lahz...coz its like all my gd frenz leaving spore like that. Haiz...1 is already in australia and she will be there for like 3yrs. Now my kor leaving end of this yr for half a yr and my another frenz leaving for around 1 month. Its so sad to haf all my best frenz overseas at the same time!!

I will miss them!!!Who can I look for when I'm lonely, bored, depressed, sianz or sad?But whatever it is, its a great chance for all of them so I shall juz be happy for them and wish them all the best!!! Moreover, think I'm still in the better situation coz I'm in spore wif my family and my other frenz...they are the one who will go thru the totally new things in their life, adapting to much more things than mi. I shldnt complain so much to make them feel so bad. :X

All the best to all my dear FRENZ!!

Todae (or rather yesterday coz now already consider tue le) reallie not my day. Early in the morning came out of LT without reallie understanding wad was happening. Not 1 lect but 2. It was like too restless to catch anything like that.

Nvm...so went lab early to discuss some stuff wif my frenz abt our FYPs as well as check out our sample. Nothing much we can do actually coz we havent submit our proposal. Time for proposal submission. End up kanna bomb until like siao. Best of all we all ended in a rather confusing state of mind. Which means there are more work to be done after that. haiz...But i juz cant find anything much related to the thickness of PLLA for degradation as well as the correct amount of base to add in. Its like no such research had been done at all. Haiz....Haiz......

It was like so sad and demoralising and disappointing...was abt to break down into tears but lucky my kai xin guo came. Thanks shiyun. Although u didnt do much and i didnt reallie bother to tok to u. But ur pressence juz make mi feel so much better. Thanks!! Of coz not forgetting my darling korkor also. Thanks for ur encouragement and advice.

Ended my day after CO. Actually dont intend to play erhu one. But my darling need my help to teach junyan and another guy erhu. So help lorz...darling request one wad can i do right? Think next time teach horz, i shldnt play so much for them to listen. (actually not alot...only like 1hr plus..then is like on n off one lorz...) Now my arm is aching...fr my neck to my wrist!!!!!!!! all the joints part so PAIN!!! Old le...or maybe i really shld listen to doc's advice...quit playing erhu.....

-i dont wan my hons lahz..let mi grad now wif a degree I'm more than happy le-

Finally its time for me to settle down to study already. Hsinghai's concert done, post concert activities done, NTU 50th anniversay performance done. All other things cleared but i juz couldnt get into the mood of studying yet.

The celebration was funz. Enjoyable. Good food. Nice entertainment. Nice get together time. Nice firework. But all funz had come to an end. Coz........................

Tue went for my FYP stuff. After a small discussion wif my sup, I realise that there are still so much to be done. So much to plan. So much to try. So much to read. Yet I had such little time left. My polymer need at least 4 months to degrade. How can I ever finish the experiment and get my report written b4 I grad considering the fact that I havent even get to touch my real polymer yet!! After discussion, all my frenz tot wad happened to mi coz i turned pale....haiz...

Best of all, tml quiz yet I dont even haf any mood to study at all. Still got the mood to blog here. Steady huh?!!?haiz...

Miss those carefree days I once enjoyed. Miss u harz!!!!

* 0% confident for tml's quiz*
*shld buck up on my refer, infer, transfer skill!!*