Think this post's not going to make any sense la. Not feeling too good now. Its so sianz n sickening. So tiring and boring. So lonely thou I'm not alone. Haiz... Suppose to be feeling happy coz of the long wkend I shld be enjoying. Yet I'm not. Suppose to be happy over a new hp that I juz bought. But I'm not. Suppose to be smiling as sky is filled wif stars. But I'm not. I juz wan to be happier.

Happy Birthday, Bohan!!! See ur nua er sooooo sweet la...haahhaa...ok enuff crap shall complain abit now. This morning I was told to go down for my annual medical checkup by the company. So all of us rush over to loyang plant to get it done.

First of all, the stupid blood pressure equipment cant get my blood pressure la... got to repeat then can get but well at least I got normal blood pressure still. See the word still?? hahaa..well...I dunno how long more before I get real stress up and affect my blood pressure for working here ba.. hahaha...

Second, I went for blood test lor. The nurse poke the thick thick needle into my right arm there then a moment after twisting and finding its way to the vein under my skin, she say sorry huh...i think ur vein too thin and collapse right after I insert this thick thick needle. Well haf to change hand n i will change a thinner needle for u. So of coz change hand lor. I look like an idiot lor. Only person to be drawn twice, each on each arm la... stupid la..and the nurse still wan to blame it that I got low blood count or wad...rubbish la...this is the 1st time in my life that the nurse poke the needle in and cant get my blood lor. No skill say la...say i no blood.... -_-

Sad case la... haiz...but at least the evening bday celebration wif my frenz brighten up my day. Hahhaha.... well..so tired now but cant sleep...need to blow dry my hair!!!! yawnz....tml got to go do ECG le.........

Morning...haha...if anyone realise, how come todae ahnua is up n awake so early on a lazy sat leh??haha.. I suppose coz I old already la..no need so much sleep le.. Or izzit juz getting used to waking up early already? well...I do feel quite a bit of weight on my eyelid le...hahaha...shld i go back to bed soon?!?!?! ahhaha.... I think I'm weird and going crazy soon already ba...

Since I was awake so early and I got nothing much to do, was reading thru my past entries. I MISS THOSE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even thou some maybe unpleasant. I wan them back!!!!!! Well... I dont think its in anyway possible la. I'm asking for things that cannot happen again. AH NUA!! wake up and be more realistic la!!!! Its impossible for time to turn back. Eermm..if can horz... I wonder will my decision on some stuff differ fr wad I did?? I suppose will if I know what will happen.

Was out for dinner wif my frenz last night. It was until after dinner that we realise we off work too late le. Coz after dinner, everywhere close liao la...sianz right? haha..but wad to do, can only go off at that late timing lor. We so ke lian right? hard life har.... best of all, when we start calculating our loan repayment and salary etc, WE STILL FEEL SO POOR!!!! The stupid loan is eating up all my money la.... stupid la...study so much juz to torture myself during n after studying la...

Yawnzzzz........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

Back home feeling feverish and wif a headache. Only to hear his crying when I step into the house. Hahaha...As usual, he's crying all the time. He's super AA and playful and difficult to please. A small little prince we are talking abt here who love to drool....... Drool so much that I feel as thou we can mop the floor wif his saliva. hahaha... Was carrying him juz now and I realise how lousy I'm. Juz like carry a while only and my hand feel suan now le. die la...I'm sooooo weak la....oh yeah...he finally stop crying n is enjoying his milk le. Bedtime for him soon....How I wish my life is like his. Soooo FREE and got pple to pamper and attend to him la. Hhahah...

My cute little nephew! So cheeky!

WWooooo....juz got back fr the 1st ever musical i watch in my lifetime. Its great and very eye opening!! well...too poor so only get the bird eye view seat. Hhaha...the orchestra is very very good!!! super impressive siahz... music is soooooooo nice!!!! and the scene transition and props are also very interesting as well. Hhahaa....well...as for the singing, i shld say that it can be better de. Maybe they are tired le ba.. hahaa...but overall, its nice nice nice!!! Suddenly love musical siahz... hahahaa....swan lake anyone???hee...

But of coz....there's quite a few things that spoilt todae's nice show la...first of all, work la.....idiots! sms mi to complain got problem. then when i ask, he cant even ans the most simple qn la...how to solve with nothing to start wif huh???? diao....lucky my technician is at work todae..ask him help mi check. secondly, the person sitting in front of me thru out the musical is always n forever trying to block my view la... sianz,.....third, the person sitting diagonal behind mi remove her heels during the musical, well...i'm ok wif it coz they dont stink but the thing is that, she rest her feet on my sis's chair....so erxin la....wear until so nice then action spoilt everything...erks...juz simply cant understand why the hell she bothers to dress so nice la...

another thing that's sooooo funnie is that the esplanade staff tot my sis bought bow n arrow to the musical...hahahaha....coz my sis reply her..oh its bow inside the case... hahaha....i was like almost laughing to death la...hahahahahhaa....

记忆的傀儡

你我之间,
总像夹着什么像多了一道围墙,
一道看不见的墙..

现在的我们,
即使站得再靠近也不能像以前一样..

现在的我们,
多了距离,少了熟悉
多了尴尬,少了自在
多了沉默,少了话题

在这个世界,有得就有失时间的流逝,
往往是我们不能控制的..

放手,简单的两个字..
做起来却好难,好难...

尤其当记忆在作祟,把人们变成记忆的傀儡

期待

雨后的彩虹，七彩灿烂
我伸出手想去触碰，
却发现彩虹不见了

彩虹的离去是短暂的逃避，还是眼前的视线模糊而已？

努力的背后，何否有彩虹？
我开始不确定。。。

寻找遗失的彩虹，是真正喜爱，
还是种弥补呢？

期待，
能让彩虹再次出现，
不再逃避了。。。

Woooo....I think I'm almost a super woman le. Lucky tml I dont haf to work (by right). Pray hard that no one will call mi tml to solve problem!!!! As u can see...its like 147am now n I'm still awake. Main reason being I juz got home at 1am. Was at work till ard 1230am la....haiz....Almost like work for 16hrs minus abit for dinner n lunch la....haiz....its reallie very tiring yet I must conduct the test and draw conclusion fr the result. Lucky enuff to haf my sup back at the last min to help mi decide and contact some pple whom I dunno who they are at all. hhahahaha.... well....can only pray that nothing will goes wrong ba...else it will be a very very serious case liao lor....

where's my life?!?!?!??!?!?!?! hpmh.........................

Its april fool's day again. Was looking thur my past entry and yes...this yr round I will be guai guai..wont go ard teasing pple le. I wonder izzit really coz I wanna be guai or izzit coz there isnt anyone there for mi to tease anymore. My frenz all seems so far away fr me that I feel that I'm no longer part of them anymore. We seldom haf the chance to meet or even chat on msn anymore. Be it I'm too busy or them. Either way, we are juz not free for one another anymore. Of coz its kind of disheartening. However, wad can be done? Almost nothing I guess.. Well.. nvm ba...as long as everyone is living happily or say gd enuff is all that matters.

原来，世间真正的寂寞，并非一个人的独处。而是当你心中有一个人的时候，却不能及时跟他分享生命的悲欢喜苦。(extracted fr my frenz's blog, well said I shld say.)