Todae went over to ECP in the afternoon.....wweeeeee.... its fun but very very very tiring la. I feel as thou my legs werent mine. Lost of control and too nua to move le. Hahaha...fall countless times even when i'm juz rolling. Yeah..rolling on my wheel instead of blading i also can fall. Hahhaa..lousy me. and to think that yiing can still say i'm one of her "gao tu" hahah... I know le. must be coz I fall in style!!!! hahaha..or izzit coz i taller than her???hahhaha.... i hate humps!!!!! juz make mi roll in the wrong different or make mi fall only la. thanks yiing n kaiyu!! at least now i can blade abit bit..hahah..of coz not forgetting alfred n der the other time for teaching mi the balancing position n falling pose..hahaha...

After that ride wif my sweetie, reallie feel so much better. Hahah...i also dunno why...maybe coz juz feel so shuang that i can travel on bike without cycling? maybe coz i dont feel so weird there?? hahaha...but he must be tired la coz i'm like so heavy la!!! hahaha..suddenly then realise he reallie tall tall siah.. i can sit straight on the bike. and he so steady la...wooo hoo.... hee...

Dinner was another highlight. Hahah..pple eat BBQ stuff, yiing, yuhui n me went eat hawker food. Haha...the nicest is the sugar cane drink!!!! haiz..reallie abit mafan to eat wif braces la. all food juz stuck everywhere la. haiz..haa...but wad to do wanna be pretty pretty in future ma..hee

eermm....hope that laopa will get well soon ba. and he har...bluff me again!!!! =(

Juz feeling so different n weird. Abt wad?? eerm.....alot of things ba...but maybe i juz couldnt figure out wad they are. or izzit i simply refuse to figure them out. or rather i know it yet dont wanna care abt it? maybe i'm plain lazy. maybe i'm juz stupid. maybe i'm juz acting blur. hahaha.. i'm not too sure either.

Juz put on the top row of my braces. It feel weird with something extra and keep touching my lip la. Hoping n praying that i wont haf much pain n will still be able to eat ba.

My hp the "ok" button juz drop out. so now its left wif a hole there la. abit mafan to use my hp now. so weird to dig into the hole to press that button la.. sianz.....why always like that de?!?!?!? sianz la..........................................

That day went out wif my frenz. Jus feel different. Its like nothing much to tok abt except keep crapping ard. We are so close yet it turn out to be so far away in fact. Feeling rather ke xi thing turn out to be this way. But wad to do? we are all busy. maybe that's life ba..

so different......different or difference? hahaha...

Woww...cool...had a wonderful dinner at new york new york and dessert session at bakerzinn last sun with choo, sy n haowei. Hahah..it was so funz to meet up wif them. Getting lots of updates of alot of frenz of MSE. Hahah..but heard that those working in STmicro like abit buay tahan the job. Eermm...make me wonder izzit personal adaptbility or izzit reallie that bad. How come those chartered ones seems ok leh???eerm...hee...

By right shld haf my braces on le but the blur doc call me on mon which is the day i shld put on my braces that I need to take medication. Haiz..so gonna wait till 28th le lorz...sianz...sianz harz...haiz...

Eeehh...oh ya..that day went back to NTU. Was so funz la...had a super enjoyable dinner wif the NELlers..hahaha...sy also join us lahz..hee..so fun so fun. Laff until tummy n cheek pain lor. Then went find some lab tech chat quite a while with them la. Eerm...reallie make mi miss my schooling life siahz and of coz my hostel life la!!! haiz..envy them harz.. Hey u guys! treasure ur schooling life har!! Haoyi n yen, FYP days arent that tough la not very tiring de lahz. Eerm..think u all too pia le la..hee..right sy??hahahah

That night had a super long chat wif my frenz and it was then that I realise that he seems to understand me better than myself. Reallie surprised by all the comments that he gave me. Reallie lahz..I not acting blur!!! or maybe sometimes I reallie blur de lor.. I not so 神 de lorz..hahaha...u think too highly of me le lahz. Eerrm...yaya..but no matter wad, thanks for being my frenz. Thanks for always being there for me. Thanks for cheering me up whenever I'm bored n unhappy. Thanks for your care n concern. Reallie glad n fortunate to haf you as my frenz. And remember horz.. anything can come to me. Will always be there for you, helping you on wadever stuff that I can.

Went back to my heart doc to ask abt my condition. He was rather shock that I got rejected by that excuse coz I'm as fit as normal pple now le and he already certify me as on 2002 le lorz. Eerm...dunno lah...maybe is the company's policy ba. Might call up to find up ba. Also dunno lahz..maybe too lazy to do so. Hhaha..see how ba...then at 1st wanna go to my dentist to get my medication de. But he say can only give me a few days in advance. So i will haf to go back again le lorz. Hahha...but nvm lahz. went shopping ard wif mother in orchard. Didnt buy anything other than food lorz.Hhaha..then meet frenz at dohby ghaut. At 1st wanna catch a movie but nothing nice so we decided to haf a nice nice dinner. Hahaha..

Due to lack of slept after that long chatting session, I slept for a total of 14hrs yesterday!! ahhaa...plus the nice nice weather la..hee.. and sorry to those who try chatting to me on msn, I was too bored n getting abit piss coz everyone asking me for the reason why am I bored. But reallie no reason la. Hee..

Sianz.......................z.z.z.z.z...........zzzz....................... tml got prac again..................

Eerrmm....I suppose most of you shld know abt my job stuff le ba. But I duno why juz feel like blogging on it. Maybe coz there isnt anything else happening in my life that affect me more than this ba.

Haf being telling all that I'm okie wif it. How to put it leh? Yaya...its like kind of expected coz of the delay in the report. So maybe that's why I dont feel the impact that much ba. But of coz no matter wad its like abit of disappointment that wad I'm prepared for the worst reallie happen.

Was thinking wad some of my frenz said is true. Its better that they reject me now than if anything happen, they are unwilling to bear any responsibility. Thanks for pointing this out for me! But from another view, wad can I be in the future? Am I reallie that weak and unhealthy? I cant be an engineer already? If so, why the hell did I study engineering for leh? Reallie juz for the sound rather specialised degree?? I'm starting to doubt my ability le.... This sound bad!! But dont worry, I wont give up so easily de. Will try applying for a few more engineering position that dont requires shift work type. Maybe still possible? If not, maybe reallie reallie got to switch path le. Am I reallie born into this world to haf such disadvantage since birth? Or am I born wif a tai tai life? haha..

Thanks mama for providing me so much support n encouragement when I recieved the news.
Thanks darling yiing, daddy and laopa for sharing part of my burden when I 1st recieved the news.
Thanks shiyun for ur company, treat and talk right after you hear wad happened to me.
Thanks baobei, yanling, gan ma, sweetie, laopo, teekin and allan for ur encouragement and motivation.
Thanks siew choo and haowei for ur concern and reminder.
Thanks haoyi for reminding me that 天无决人之路.
Thanks qi for ur encouragement and well wishes.
Thanks lingying for point out the fact that being rejected now might be better.
Thanks lansi for speaking out for me that make me feel I'm actually rather healthy.

Thanks everyone! I'm reallie ok!! Dont worry. =)

在对的时间，遇见对的人，是一生幸福
在对的时间，遇见错的人，是一场心伤
在错的时间，遇见错的人，是一段荒唐
在错的时间，遇见对的人，是一阵叹息
其实有些事情，真的是没得到的时候， 最珍贵美丽
你是否分得清楚谁是你最爱的人，
谁是最爱你的人，谁是你要共度一生的人.
你最爱的，往往没有选择你；
最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的， 只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。
你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？
没有人是故意要变心的，她爱你的时候是真的爱你，
可是她不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了， 她爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；
同样的，她不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你 。
聪明的人喜欢猜心，虽然每次都猜对了，却失去了自己的心.........
傻气的人喜欢给心，虽然每次都被笑了，却得到了别人的心.........