Friday, June 03, 2005
Have been meeting up wif quite a few frenz recently or get news of them thru phone calling. Met up wif 2 of my frenz.. 1 whom I know for like 14 over years, another for like 4 years. They are my only few frenz that are reallie reallie close to me to the extend that we dont even haf to talk to understand each other type of frenz. Which I can say, they are the only few who know mi insde out without me telling them who i am directly wif my mouth. Reallie treasure this unqiue frenship wif them. No matter how seldom we meet up, we are always contacted right from our hearts and always there for each other!
These few gatherings i had wif them, reallie make mi feel rather sad and heartaching for wad they are going thru in their life now. Actually it shld be a time of enjoyment as we are all having our beautiful n relaxing holiday, yet they are sort of going thru and wanting to make one of the most difficult decision wif their loves one. From wad i heard from them, it reallie make mi ponder why we human being will haf such feeling. A feeling that may coz much pain and sufferings instead of love and understanding. Ya, its possessivesness...
They both haf a love partner who are consider to be the possessive type. One of their partner juz feel like "locking" my frenz up at home because she is getting more n more beautiful wif so much weight lost and more feminie dress sense. Another complaining that my frenz didnt accompany him enuff. But the fact is, the guy is not having holiday now, he need to go to sch and my fren only go out wif her frenz during his sch hrs, and back to accompany him when he off sch! Is it my frenz's fault to be born beautiful?? Is it my frenz's fault to go out wif her own frenz so that she can enjoy her last n only holiday left? I dont think so!! Guys, why are u so possessive?!?!?!
This is a qn that i might never be able to ans. Maybe because of my "lover of freedom" character that i haf. I may not be even able to understand a single bit of it at all anyway. With this qn in mind, I ask for the point of view from a guy frenz of mine. Like I had guessed, he said that guys become possessive because they lose confidence in themselves due to the fact that gers now are more capable, unable to face up wif the reality that there are much better guys out there than him, maybe unable to accept the fact that his ger might leave him for someone else. True?
But why didnt those guys realise that there are pple who cant stand possessiveness? Isnt there a saying, the tighter u put the string, the easier n faster it will break? (haha....sound rather mechanics..but its true that such things happen wad!) Negative Feedback mechanism here. All along, I thought that loving 1 person is to know that he/she is enjoying his/her life happily? Why does it turn out to be "owning" this somebody who you love and not giving he/she his/her freedom?
Ger, dont ever do such silly thing again! Your life is much more worthwhile than someone who dont know how to treasure you and actually dont reallie understand you much! There are still so many pple here by ur side, showing and showering you with love and care!! A boyfrenz can be important, but its not everything in life. Learn to let go when it's time. Even though this "letting go" period might take ages but at least you are learning to accept reality. Be strong! Time will slowly heal you....you will be alright, ok?
*smile*
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