You kill with magic.
You are very skilled with magic, but have poor
fighting skills. But it doesn't really matter
anyway since it can be as powerful as other
weapons. You are probably missunderstood by
people and have some pain inside you. You are
not the kind of person to start a fight, but if
you are provocted you respond. You probably
don't have that many friends either though you
might want some. According to you life is a
lonely journey and you try not to care to much.
Most people who are witches or anything similar
is thought to be evil and want to see all
people suffer. That however is not true. You
don't feel that much joy seeing others in pain.
You are probably peaceful and quiet when left
alone.

Main weapon: Potions and spells
Quote: "A man can be destroyed but
not defeated" -Ernest Hemingway
Facial expression: Blank eyes


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So many things happened recently. So many sudden changes in my life. So many frenz to entertain. So much work to complete. So many so many.....

Wad shld be my priority in life now?
Family? Frenz? Health? Study? Interest? Happiness?

I reallie duno wad shld it be. Making me so confused and turned my life upside down now.
Can I haf a peaceful night by the sea under a sky filled wif stars to think things thru n set them according??? I want I want!!!! BUT......................

Wad's life? How shld life be like???

Which type of ah nua do u prefer?
a) Someone like who I'm now.
b) Someone who's not willing to crap, abit anti-social, dont reallie smile.
c) Someone u cant find/contact wif no matter how hard u tried.

Might turn into type b some day.
Maybe its juz a temporary change.
Coz sometimes its juz too difficult to smile, to crap, to be friendly.
It can be very tiring one.

If reallie so, hope that I wont hurt or scare anyone off.
Its juz life. Life is filled wif changes.

-missing the stars, the sand, the sea-

Think I'm still not very used to the phrase that says "Being alone doesnt mean you are lonely"

Whenever, I'm back in my hostel, I juz cant help but feeling lonely and depressed. Its so torturing to be in such a quiet place. However, gd on the other hand so that I can reallie do alot of thinking. Thinking abt alot alot of things recently and maybe that's why I'm feeling more n more depressed as time goes by for the night. Hahaa...maybe my hair will turn white sooner than expected already!

One good thing for me is, I seems to be able to "restart" my mood by a long night sleep. Whenever I wake up in the morning, I will feel alright although normally very sleepy. But at least the loneliness and depression seems to disappear for the moment. Isnt this great?Hahha....
Everything juz goes in the circle every night n morning. It might be gd, it might be bad. I duno..

Think the main reason I feel so lonely when I'm in hostel is because, thru out the day, I meet groups of frenz for meals....haf group of frenz accompany me for lessons and funz. Its like I'm never left alone. But in the night, I'm suddenly left wif myself to be wif, its juz so difficult to adapt suddenly. I juz hope that there's someone there for me to tok to, for me to hug and lean on lorz.

To all who are concern abt me n reading this stupid post, dont worry! I will try my best to adapt to it! I believe I can do it, its juz a matter of time. Nothing is impossible if you try hard enuff. It might not be true, but at least its wad I think. Hehhe...

-learning in progess-

2 years. It took us 2 years to somehow recover from wad had happened. It happened in ard oct 2003. Things after that reallie became very very bad. We didnt reallie keep in touch then. Every phone calls or msn sessions always end wif a nasty ending. We juz pissed each other off everytime without fail. It came to a point that I felt irritated to hear fr him and he felt that I wasnt even worth to be his frenz at all.

Thru out these few years, we did met up for coffee, dinner or bday celebration wif our group of mutual frenz. However, we nvr talk to each other before. At most juz a smile or a very simple hi. That's all. Nothing more than that. Moreover, everytime after any gatherings, we will end up in a super disgusting situation for sure. I dont blame him for anything bcoz, it is all my fault. He still couldnt forgive me and and I still couldnt forgive n forget everything abt wad that had happened.

Whenever I'm free, questions on why I let things be the way they are now always appear in my coconut head. No one will think that i will feel the heartache abt all that had happened till now ba. Maybe some might still think that its my retribution ba. Its like we were once so close yet now we are treat each other worse than how u would treat a stranger. This kind of feeling reallie isnt gd at all!

Todae, 2 years after wad had happened, we are finally able to sit down for a short chatting or msn sessions wifout things turning nasty. I waited 2 years to see that smile back on his face again. Waited 2 years to see him enjoying his life again! Waited 2 years to restart our friendship all over again. Even though that smile or his enjoyable life might juz be a smoke screen, I'm reallie very happy that at least we are trying to be back as fren again. We might not be tat close anymore, but at least i dare to say that we dont treat each other like strangers anymore.

Maybe I shld start to like electronics. It that textbk that savage this friendship that is very very much worth treasuring!!!

Thanks for accepting me once again!!!

This whole wk bz wif CO and lab training stuff. Tutorial not reallie started yet so no work to do. But abit guai-ier lahz. Read up some stuff abt my FYP finally and went lib to borrow books as well. Hhhaha....1st time went lib borrow bks lehz!! Break record le!

Coz todae haf to work, so sy n i decided to stay in hostel last night. However, now staying in different hall. She hall8, mi hall3. So its like kinda lonely lahz. Then since this morning work is very very near hall 8 area, sy suggested that i go over to hall 8 to sleep. However, it was like 1am when she suggested that stupid idea lahz. I was tempted. hahah...And guess wad? My caring daddy some how kanna nominated n agreed to escort me fr hall 3 to hall 8.

While packing my things, daddy was on his way over here. Oh of coz plus my kpo ex-roomie, sy lahz..Both of them walk thru cant 2, then to ny lake then to cant b and finally to my hall. It took them 30mins to reach siahz. By the time they enter my room, can reallie see how exhuasted they were. So funnie lorz...they keep scolding themselves for being so stupid to walk all the way here!!hahaha....then laze ard in my room for a little while. And finally left hall 3 at 230am!!!

Sy was so tired that when she saw a mini bus in sight, she decided to try and ask the uncle to send us back to hall 8. WOWWW!!! she reallie can teh!!!! The uncle agreed to send us back!!hahaha...Hence we board the bus. On the way he kept toking to us and ask why we so late then go back hall etc. I juz couldnt stop laughing lorz. SY SO POWER!!!!!hahaha....so my intended night walk become a night ride in the end. HAHAHaa.....finally settle down and sleep at 3am lorz coz we reach in like 10mins time!heheh...

Daddy keep saying he very sweet coz he walk all the way here to fetch me but i nvr send him to hall 8 b4. But i went cant 1 to meet him for dinner mahz...aiya...almost the same lahz...juz like 10mins more mahz..hehe..Correct??Then not coz i grow up wing hard le. (erm...i also no wing how to wing hard??haha...) Its they dont let mi stay in hall 8 lorz. U think i wanna stay here mehz? So ke lian lorz. Everytime alone one. No one to disturb lorz.

How I hope I can move back lorz!

-super tired during and after work now coz only slept for 4hrs :( -

It was quite awhile ago that I last post a msg. Also dunno why I'm so busy and tired recently. Its like totally not enuff sleep at all. Juz feel like sleeping during all my breaks lahz. Lazy? Nua? Real tired? or falling sick???

Jus 2wks of sch and I feel so exhausted already. Not much work done for my FYP yet. Cant imagine how I will led my life in future. But as least for now, kinda getting used to staying in single room le. Feeling much better, less moody. Overall still can make it lahz.........

wk1, bz getting myself n shiyun's admin stuff done.
wk2, so far only bz wif CO. Pract for wed's performance and went to welcome tea.

Reallie feel so she bu de to leave. However, i like dont haf so much time to go up so often le. Will reallie miss them!!! Miss all my frenz there especially the nosiy cum crazy NELLERs and associate as well as my slightly more normal ah nua family n frenz.

Like wad kaka said, CO reallie make my life in NTU to be so much more meaningful, eventful and fun filling. Reallie feel so bonded to it at times that I cannot dont go up. Hahaa...(juz too playful..can?)Thinking back at the times when I was still in Comm. Put in so much so much to achieve wad we haf todae. Other than the frenz there, this amount of effort reallie make mi bu she de to leave even more. But I know its time to let go. Everything will haf an ending no matter wad. Furthermore, its kinda like I can only choose 1 of the choices bet studies and CO. So........decided to be a ghosting member or maybe be their guest player when they need pple.

That's all for now!

-getting slightly more used to single room-