Think I'm still not very used to the phrase that says "Being alone doesnt mean you are lonely"

Whenever, I'm back in my hostel, I juz cant help but feeling lonely and depressed. Its so torturing to be in such a quiet place. However, gd on the other hand so that I can reallie do alot of thinking. Thinking abt alot alot of things recently and maybe that's why I'm feeling more n more depressed as time goes by for the night. Hahaa...maybe my hair will turn white sooner than expected already!

One good thing for me is, I seems to be able to "restart" my mood by a long night sleep. Whenever I wake up in the morning, I will feel alright although normally very sleepy. But at least the loneliness and depression seems to disappear for the moment. Isnt this great?Hahha....
Everything juz goes in the circle every night n morning. It might be gd, it might be bad. I duno..

Think the main reason I feel so lonely when I'm in hostel is because, thru out the day, I meet groups of frenz for meals....haf group of frenz accompany me for lessons and funz. Its like I'm never left alone. But in the night, I'm suddenly left wif myself to be wif, its juz so difficult to adapt suddenly. I juz hope that there's someone there for me to tok to, for me to hug and lean on lorz.

To all who are concern abt me n reading this stupid post, dont worry! I will try my best to adapt to it! I believe I can do it, its juz a matter of time. Nothing is impossible if you try hard enuff. It might not be true, but at least its wad I think. Hehhe...

-learning in progess-