Was reading my frenz's blog abt his sup who juz pass away due to complication after a heart op. I was feeling so relieved that everything turn out to be so smoothly and enable me to survive till now. Think at the age of 16, I didnt reallie know of how dangerous that op will be so I dont appear to be in fright or anything like this at all. No wonder, everyone was so concern n encouraging to me during that period of time especially. I'm glad that I haf a gd doc who made an excellent judgement that I haf to go thru the op asap! else I dont think I'll be alive till now le.
But....after much tots on it, I recieved news that my frenz's mother juz got a heart attack and juz finish a ballon op. Everything is stablised le. Jiayou n get well soon, auntie! Thou u may not remember me coz like only saw me once or twice. But hereby wishing you wholeheartedly that you haf a speedy recovery!!!! and my dear fren, be strong for her and ur family!!! of coz try to study for ur exams as much as possible!! JIAYOU!!!
Life.....so unpredictable.....
0905 22nd Nov 2006.
(8 days before my birthday exact to the minutes of time. )
I made a decision that will affect the rest of my life. I decided to forgo the eye catching n possible funz engaging experience of working in US, California. Instead, I put myself up in a contract wif Hitachi Chemicals (S'pore) to be a process enginner.
The feeling I haf before and after signing the contract is so different even thou it was juz a few second thing. Before was filled with tonnes of uncertainty and fear. After, I wished that wad I decided to do will be the fated future I shld haf. Hoping that I'll not regret for giving up the chance to go US. Hoping that I'll be able to tahan all the possible stress and responsibility for being a process engineer. I suppose Ms. Ng did feel some of my worries that's why she assured me that its a very suitable job for me as its rather chemical base which is close to wad I studied. She also told me to give myself 1 or 2 months to see if I'm suitable to the work personally instead of juz deciding after 1 or 2 wks of work. Thanks!
Thanks Teekin for all the advises on regards to the benefits n pay.
Thanks Rae for encouraging me to stay on in spore instead of joining the rest for the California trip as well as checking out hitachi stuff for me.
Thanks Yanling, Shiyun, Juhua, Lifang, Changyuan, Haoyi, Junqi for all the support n encouragement all these while.
Thanks Genentech for such a gd offer that I'm unable to accept at this pt of time.
Thanks Hitachi Chemical (Spore) for offering me a job.
Of coz not forgetting my mother who make me realise how much she expect of me.
THANKS!!
I dont like....
I dont like the way I'm now.
I dont like to be so indecisive.
I dont like to be not sure of wad I reallie wan.
I dont like to be so confused.
I dont like to be "thrown" aside when I wan to speak.
I dont like to haf a choice at times.
I dont like to make my own decision.
Why upon being selected, I feel worse?
To go or to stay?
For myself or family?
For money n stabililty or eye opening experience?
If only I know wad I wan, I will sure be feeling alot better now.
During this 3hrs, I'm like toking non stop like a spoilt radio where I kept repeating to 5 different interviewers of almost the same thing. Its very taxing n tiring until the last 2 u feel as thou ur mouth n brain aint coordinating very well anymore. Hhaha..and coz of so much toking early in the morning, I'm down wif a sore throat la... Sob.... I would say that all the interviewers are very nice pple. Very friendly n approachable. Maybe coz they are americans??? different interviewing culture ba. Making u feel at ease n motivating. Hahhaa..
Nothing will be confirm until end of this wk. Supposely by fri. Also dunno whether I will choose to go or stay even if i get it. Hahha...see how.. I need sometime to think. coz I will haf to save like mad juz to survive there. able to work things out ma?? with that big sum of loan here??ermm...
wahahha....next will be the super exciting n nice highlights of the day! I'm out for dinner with yanling. Whaha....she got meritus mandrian hotel meal voucher so we went there for dinner for our brought forward bday celebration! haha...only spent a total of $14 to get the nice food n a cup of coffee at starbucks! ahha...a voucher day. hahaha...let see wad's on our dinner menu. Only a few photos taken coz we didnt bring camera n my hp went n
o batt. Hhaha... lala..see this is our dear yanling enjoying her 1st dish which is yam n chicken in it! ahha...this dish turn out to be the lousiest. Cant taste the chicken only the yam la....hahaha... 
and ya...of coz will haf mi showing my greedy face for the "cheap" n nice food!! so coming up are a few other dishes that are nice n very nice..hahaa..too bad cant get a shot of each of the dishes coz my hp dieded le...wait huh...i shall upload now.. 
so the pic above show our nice n tasty shark fin soup....abit blur la..sorry la..see the shark fin the hand reaching for the spoon liao...hahaah...n below will be our lovely abalone!!!the plate is so interesting right???hahaha..
And this pic below show a close up view of the abalone. Abit blur coz getting excited to taste it le..hahahaa....and see that evil face of yanling's!!! hahaa...she asked mi to take that photo to make her bf jealous for the gd food we were having!! hahaha....
Hahahha,....finally ended our dinner with 2 desserts each. hahah...coz we didnt use till the min spending of the voucher. HAhaha...so ordered something more to reach $150. Hahah...nice n worthwhile dinner. Cool isnt it?? hahaha... Funniest thing is that, the last time we went there, we were sitting at the exact same table as todae!!!!! hahahaha... but even thou we were more well dressed todae, a few tables of pple juz keep looking at us. Hahhaa...we were thinking if we were so charming. But I suppose they shld be thinking youngster nowadays reallie know how to "throw" their money n enjoy themselves. HHAhaa..
The night end of with a short trip to borders and a nice cup of coffee which cost 2 for 5 cents. Hhhahah....vouchers can do wonders!!!! expensive food for $14 each n coffer for 5cents...ahhahaha.... now waiting for hp to charge finish then i can go to bed to orrr orrr liao...hahaha...izzit done izzit done???? hahaha...
Hhaha...this afternoon someone ask mi to update my blog more often. Eerm....not often enuff meh???hahaha...maybe shld compare with the rest of our mutual frenz instead of herself la. Hhhaha... actually reallie dunno wad to blog abt. Nothing new in my life to update at all la... maybe..maybe tml after my interview I will haf more stuff to write abt.
I'm suppose to read up the company profile for tml's interviewing company. But i dunno why nothing juz seems to get in except those super general stuff lor. Eermm...juz now my mother ask mi abt tml's interview where i will need to fly over to US for 18months de. She seems abit not encouraging abt it. Worrying abt the financial part as well as my safety issue. And i found out that the bond they mention dont secure mi a job instead they juz wan mi to work in spore no matter wad company also can. But i haf to find the company by myself. So in the end, its kind of a vague future i will haf if i get to go.
Maybe my brain refuse to absorb coz my mother doesnt reallie encourage. Maybe back in my head I dont wanna leave my comfort zone n cozing delay to my braces treatment as well as my heart checkup issue.
Should I still pin on hoping to be an engineer???? Its like not heading to the correct direction as yet. hmph..........How i wish someone can juz tell mi wad to do n i juz follow. Its so much easier n faster!
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My 1st bday cake last year!
My 1st bday cake this year!
Woooo...its like so long later then will be my bday but i already got my 1st bday cake this year. Remember last year that cake was bought by der and gave me a surprise celebration back in my hall when I'm back in room after going out wif my frenz for funz ba. Der was the 1st to wish me happy birthday and celebrated for me. Thou it was juz in my room, but its reallie nice of him to remember it and bother to celebrate for me then. Thanks, der!!! Hahhaa...but horz.. that wasnt a real cake ba. Or rather maybe abit melted? haha...dunno lehz.. both of us dont think it was a cake la... hehehe...
As for this yr...its another cake but not fr him la. Fr some of my ntuco frenz lor. So nice of them to bring it forward to celebrate for me coz they know that they wont be free during the end of the month. Even thou abit too early but its the tot's that count!! hee..thanks all for the fun n enjoying day at pitstop as well as Ichiban Boshi. Hahha...It was so nice of u all for the celebration n presents!! :) But guess wad...that wasnt a cake!!!! hahaha....its actually something reallie super creative. Make a guess leh. Hhehe...
Its a panty wrap round a cake shaped like cardboard! ahhaha..heard that still got swiss roll and other type of cakes worz...ehee...creative hor??? =P
As usual. Its the 4th day of the week where I cant reallie do anything efficiently le lorz. The stupid system is always showing me:
"CGI ErrorThe specified CGI application misbehaved by not returning a complete set of HTTP headers. The headers it did return are:
System Timeout"
Since I cant do anything but still can be online, decided to find a new pic to change for my blog. Hhaha.. another photo that I like. Hhaha..took much effort to take this photo coz my print juz keep getting wipe off by the wave. then taking a photo with a brand new camera plus my hands all filled wif sand must be super duper extra carefull to protect my beloved camera siahz. Hhaha..
Hope that this background will look abit better for the text ba. Hahha..actually I wanted to edit the text colour also de. But 1 big problem again. Hhaa..I duno how to change la. all the colour are represent by number de lorz. How to get it??? hahaha....
Yesterday was toking to my frenz n this so call topic "pop" out of my mind. Who will u think of when u get to some places? when u see something? when u hear something? Hahha...I just realise actually I haf very few frenz or rather I'm always out wif that few of them. Whatever I think of its always that few of them...hahah..
For those who are fr/in NTU de will know all these ba.
Who comes to ur mind when u are in:
-Canteen A?
-LT 6?
-South spine TR n SR?
-MSE comp lab?
-CITS comp lab?
-LWN lib?
-Hall 8 study room?
-NTU rooftop walkway?
-Hall that you stay (for me is 8 & 3)?
-Hall that you always haf fun (for me will be 8, 2, 5 & 3)?
-NYH?
-Canteen 2?
-NY Audi?
-Biomat lab?
-Certain part of NTU walk way?
-179 bus stop coffee shop?
-The prata place opp hall 5?
-Boon lay market lasi lemak place?
-JP?
For those unfamiliar with NTU de dont worry. Here's another set of places outside NTU.
Who comes to ur mind when u are in:
-Parco Bugis Junction?
-Suntec City?
-Marina sq?
-Esplanade?
-Merlion?
-Raffles place mrt?
-Orchard?
-Sentosa beach?
-ECP?
-Seletar res?
-SCH?
-Bishan coffee bean?
-AMK bubble tea place?
-Sakae Sushi?
-On the train/bus?
Another list if for whatever reasons u nvr haf chance to think of any pple out of those mentioned places. Hee...
Who comes to ur mind when see ur fav soft toy (if any)?
Who come to ur mind when u use something?
Who comes to ur mind when u see something like keychain or hp chain or hp pouch etc?
Who comes to ur mind when u juz listen to some music?
Who is/are the pple who come to ur mind????? Can U recall anything or anyone? Something that's all linked up and hiding in ur brain secretly all these while. Its reallie interesting how much ur brain can remember all this relationship that remind u of things that u either enjoyed or hate it, isnt it? Hhaha..