Jasmine Chai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cant find u online at all la.... must be out celebrating ur bday!! haha..

Happie bday to u!
Happie bday to u!
Happie bday to Jasmine!
Happie bday to u!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Take care and enjoy!!!! hee...

Eermm....think i'm too bored or tired or stress up or wadever. I started reading all my past entries again. Also read thru alot of other things that I wrote in hardcopy or in my email when I was still studying.

Everything dated back to yr 2001. It was so interesting then. Communicating thru ICQ (i suppose only old folks remember wad's that) then thru email when we dont see anyone online. Hahhaa...paging for pple and returning calls thru public phone. holding on to the silver reflective N8810 and was soooo proud of it even thou it wasnt mine. hahhaha...kena chicken pox until cannot go out....all the chain letter where qn like how well we know each other that type and of coz lots of grumbling abt my jc life then. and come to think of it, its rather disappointing that my emotional support during my jc days and uni days are no longer close to me anymore. But no matter wad, thanks for being that even for juz a period of time.

Then after getting a N8250 hp, everything switch to hp le...not as much email..so i got not much records le.. ahhaa...and when ICQ die...all history also gone le. Of coz bcoz I'm a comp idiot who dunno how to backup my stuff sure loss all data after changing a comp la. hahaha... then switch to MSN and of coz more n more new hp(N6610, SE K700, SGH-E730 & finally SE K800i)...ahhaa... well....electronic world dont seems to work too well for mi! haha..back to the ancient way man. PAPER!!!! hahaha...

Well....then the next record online will haf to skip to feb 2003 to oct 2003. eerrmm....its a period where I haf a person taking gd care of me. But far too good till I think I cant commit. How to put it leh. Its juz the wrong time ba and I'm not worthly enuff for him. Anyway, I'm happy to see him getting on so well now. Yupz...

then to may 2004. I sent and recieved an email that affected me sooooo very much maybe even until now ba. hou yi zheng ba.. haha.. then maybe to may 2005 or earlier ba till jul 2006... nice n sweet emails....of coz on n off having alot of stupid and informative emails which in 1 way or another affected and groom to be whoever I'm now ba...

As for anything after that, as u all can see from my blog, they are all sad sad or not so happy things de.... eermm....1 yr I havent been reallie happy ba.

I smile not because I'm happy but coz I need to smile.
I laff not because I'm happy but coz I haf to laff.

I frown not because I wan to frown but coz I'm sad & tired.
I cry not because I wan to cry but coz I'm sad.

I raise my voice not coz I'm angry but coz I'm irritated & pissed.
I refuse to talk not coz I'm angry but coz I'm tired.

Wad the hell is happening?!!?!?

Finally able to be back online. Hope that its reallie working from now onwards. Didnt do anything juz suddenly able to come back online again. While I was away fr the net all these while, a lot of things happened. A lot of things that I haf to choose to keep it to myself. Everything is in a mess and I hope that everything will be better soon.

I juz wan a simple life. At least not a messy one if it cant be a happy one.

Yeppie yeah!!! finally the irritating audit is over and my process line is doing very very very good that the auditor cant dig anything at all. So much for all the hardwork, OT, less rest and alot more running around to get things fix and in place! Best of all, tml my jap bossy gona give us a treat!!!! whaahah....

Well, frankly speaking, its the 1st audit I been through for this 23 years of my life. Its scary and like busy and eermm....taxing....irritating.....tiring....alot alot.. But no matter wad, I gain and learnt something new again. Was so glad that the auditor cant find anything to dig into. Finally over and I can put my heart in all the testing that was put on hold due to this stupid thing.

Hope everything will be great ba..... I'm tired.............................................................
I NEED A BREAK!!!!!

Was surfing the net and found this story.

那是一個非常寧靜而美麗的小城﹐有一對非常恩愛的戀人﹐他們每天都去海邊看日出﹐晚上去海邊送夕陽﹐每個見 過他們的人都向他們投來羨慕的目光…… 　　

可是有一天﹐在一場車禍中﹐女孩不幸受了重傷﹐她靜靜地躺在醫院的病床上﹐幾天幾夜都沒有醒過來。白天 ﹐男孩就守在床前不停地呼喚毫無知覺的戀人﹔晚上﹐他就跑到小城的教堂裡向上帝禱告﹐他已經哭 乾了眼淚。 　　

一個月過去了﹐女孩仍然昏睡著﹐而男孩早已憔悴不堪了﹐但他仍苦苦地支撐著。終於有一天﹐上帝被這個痴 情的男孩感動了。於是他決定給這個執著的男孩一個例外。上帝問他﹕“你願意用自己的生命作為交換嗎﹖”男孩 毫不猶豫地回答﹕“我願意﹗”上帝說﹕“那好吧﹐我可以讓你的戀人很快醒過來﹐但你要答應化作三年的蜻蜓﹐ 你願意嗎﹖”男孩聽了﹐還是堅定地回答道﹕“我願意﹗” 　　

天亮了﹐男孩已經變成了一隻漂亮的蜻蜓﹐他告別了上帝便匆匆地飛到了醫院。女孩真的醒了﹐而且她還在跟 身旁的一位醫生交談著什麼﹐可惜他聽不到。 　　

幾天後﹐女孩便康復出院了﹐但是她並不快樂。她四處打聽著男孩的下落﹐但沒有人知道男孩究竟去了哪裡。 女孩整天不停地尋找著﹐然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩卻無時無刻不圍繞在她身邊﹐只是他不會呼喊﹐不會擁抱﹐他 只能默默地承受著她的視而不見。夏天過去了﹐秋天的涼風吹落了樹葉﹐蜻蜓不得不離開這裡。於是他最後一次飛 落在女孩的肩上。他想用自己的翅膀撫摸她的臉﹐用細小的嘴來親吻她的額頭﹐然而他弱小的身體還是不足以被她 發現。 　　

轉眼間﹐春天來了﹐蜻蜓迫不及待地飛回來尋找自己的戀人。然而﹐她那熟悉的身影旁站著一個高大而英俊的 男人﹐那一剎那﹐蜻蜓幾乎快從半空中墜落下來。人們講起車禍後女孩病得多麼的嚴重﹐描述著那名男醫生有多麼 的善良﹑可愛﹐還描述著他們的愛情有多麼的理所當然﹐當然也描述了女孩已經快樂如從前。 　　

蜻蜓傷心極了﹐在接下來的幾天中﹐他常常會看到那個男人帶著自己的戀人在海邊看日出﹐晚上又在海邊看日 落﹐而他自己除了偶爾能停落在她的肩上以外﹐什麼也做不了。 　　

這一年的夏天特別長﹐蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飛著﹐他已經沒有勇氣接近自己昔日的戀人。她和那男人之間的喃喃 細語﹐他和她快樂的笑聲﹐都令他窒息。 　　

第三年的夏天﹐蜻蜓已不再常常去看望自己的戀人了。她的肩被男醫生輕擁著﹐臉被男醫生輕輕地吻著﹐根本 沒有時間去留意一隻傷心的蜻蜓﹐更沒有心情去懷唸過去。 　　

上帝約定的三年期限很快就要到了。就在最後一天﹐蜻蜓昔日的戀人跟那個男醫生舉行了婚禮。 　　蜻蜓悄悄地飛進教堂﹐落在上帝的肩膀上﹐他聽到下面的戀人對上帝發誓說﹕我願意﹗他看著那個男醫生把戒 指戴到昔日戀人的手上﹐然後看著他們甜蜜地親吻著。蜻蜓流下了傷心的淚水。 　　上帝嘆息著﹕“你後悔了嗎﹖”蜻蜓擦乾了眼淚﹕“沒有﹗”上帝又帶著一絲愉悅說﹕“那麼﹐明天你就可以 變回你自己了。”蜻蜓搖了搖頭﹕“就讓我做一輩子蜻蜓吧……” 有些緣份是註定要失去的。

愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他。你的肩上有蜻蜓嗎﹖

Another nice phrase:
When you see your boyfriend or girlfriend tonight...give them a big hug and kiss and tell them that you love them. Enjoy their company and just be glad that they are there for you. Everybody needs love and to feel assured - so hold them in your arms and let them know that you care. If I had the chance I would do that right now....

I wonder wad got into me tonight that I can still come out wif something like this when I'm like super sleepy and tired. Maybe its crap in my mind or juz something that I feel its right and can juz spill out like nobody's business.

1) Have you ever think or feel that you are the extra one in a group of frenz?
Yes.....

2) Have you ever think that you are an idiot caring for people who dont even bother much abt u?
Yes....

3) Have you ever feel distant from frenz who were once so close to you who can talk to you and share with you about everything under the sun?
Yes...

4) Have you ever feel.................
YES......

Tired..tired...tired....bored...bored...bored.... maybe that's why I bought so many things recently!!! WASTE OF MONEY!!! ok...let see...2 or 3wks ago, went out wif sis and bought like 5 tee shirt. Then juz the sun that past, I bought another pair of jeans and slippers. and todae when I went to collect my jeans, I bought another tee shirt! Aarrghh....feeling so poor now!!! hahaha...but kind of happy also leh....shit la...my way of destressing, keeping myself entertained? or wad/!??! How to survive if this continue to go on?!?!?! ahaha... somebody stop mi!!!!!!!!!!! oh oh.....dentist on sat!! meaning another $100 gona fly off.....................and i meeting frenz this wkend....... another sum gone......

But wait.... I still need a wallet and bag (to replace my wearing out wallet and bag)..... where to dig for money??????????? anyone wanna sponsor???hahahhaa